Wanting you (a poem by me)

Sometimes I pray for you to die
Sometimes I pray for you to lie to me
and tell me you love me so
I know you would tell me no
If I asked.
I wish these feelings would just pass

Sometimes I want to kick your ass
Sometimes I want to laugh
Sometimes I want to die
and sometimes I just want to cry
Whatever the feeling I know you don't care.
So why do I bother?
I really don't know